Inspirational Youth - Thando Buthelezi

I was born on November 15th, 2000 in Pretoria where I've spent half my life. With my mother, father, sister, brother and me. Life was very simple and great there. I had friends living just across the road from me. I went to Paratus - School for only two years. I loved that school because we were always having fun days on random days like pizza parties or water fun days which was incredible. As much as I loved the school I wasn't learning much, as I discovered after moving. Towards the end of 2008 my dad got a new job in KZN as a security Manager. At that time I didn't really think much. So he took me and my older siblings leaving my mother who came two years later in 2010. I had a rough time settling in because I missed my mother and knew nobody where I lived ( Ashley). A while after moving my father took me to the school next to the block we lived. The school seemed okay but I didn't like it. I must say Ashley Primary School is a very snooty school with standards but I liked it. My school career there was okay. Usual struggle to grasp was is being said, misunderstanding what has been asked for and teachers going mad when you don't complete the work. I tried telling them I couldn't understand or get help they gave me detention for it. After that I learned the bad side of school and I stopped caring. During this time I had a small group of friends but either way I knew a lot of people. I mostly stayed to myself but people forced themselves onto me and that's how we became friends . Towards the end of grade 7, although my misbehavior was a great ideal, I was awarded best student in the school. During 2011-13 I noticed some changes with my parents. More arguments, bad blood, tension and hate. I didn't really know what to make of it so I didn't let it bother me until 2013... My parents finally divorced. That event changed me. I didn't take note of what I was doing but it affected me the most. Before I never knew what pain or sorrow or any emotions like that were until my parents parted ways. They said, "it won't do anything to me" and " I have nothing to worry about" or " it's going to be alright." I didn't believe it. There on after I felt ways I thought I'd never feel. Misery, pain, sorrow, hate, regret... I was about 13 at that time and they said " thinking and depression is for older people only" but they didn't encounter children younger than me who have nothing fall into depression or think about what are they going to eat or where will they sleep. It broke my heart. What was I to do with myself? The downhill drop of my life. Many things ran through my mind, I didn't know what to do, say or think. I turned Emo (13) but I wasn't that satisfied so I turned Gothic (14) and I found my happy place. When ever I got depressed I would cut myself, enjoy the pain and blood, and moving on like nothing happened. Better yet I found the greatest things in life. The love of my life and my precious twin brother ✨ who I both love more than anything. I thought I was alone in the world until I found my brother. I fall asleep happy knowing I found him 😊. I haven't really achieved much in life but I've learned to control my anger and reduce my stress levels for the sake of my brother. I'm a very wild dreamer. My head is always in space because some day I want to be in actual space and because people say my ideas are out of this world. I've been having ideas for cars, buildings and other eco friendly ideas that could save the planet... As much as the rules I have to go by state not to really care. All this ideas came from one inspiration from one person who is my brother. He is my one and only passion going into the cyber world and designing things to better our lives. My goals for the future is to finish education, get my dream job and car, get married, build my dream house and have a family of my own. My achievement so far is not killing myself and pushing others to live on. Where I myself have inspired other people to do other things. Other things I'll wait for the future to tell.